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A Heart In A Jar Called Home

by Spider

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1.
Ode To A Ghost 05:15
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I don't wanna share you I can't bare Seeing you smile over there Like a wall of smoke The way you choke On your words Is deafening You're picking at a healing wound You know just what you're doing too Tryna walk on water When you can't even Break the surface It's the way you stare I know what you're saying Hear it in the air The chords that you're playing You've got a taste for liquor And it shows You say in Latin anything goes You're walking with ghosts You're pretty in the sunset Can't you see? Or is it just the flames fanned at our feet? Take a sip of smoke, said you'd quit last week Say it tastes like bittersweet memories You're still the same at your rotten core Kissing petals on your grave killed the cat for sure You don't beat around the bush When you bite off heads It's the way you stare I know what you're saying Hear it in the air The chords that you're playing You've got a taste for liquor and it shows You say in Latin anything goes You're dancing with ghosts And I wouldn't be the first to say it Not even close It's not a competition The clock ticks on its own Little hands Little numbers Pass by the time Your smile makes the hands stop A red traffic light It's the way you stare I know what you're saying Hear it in the air The chords that you're playing You've got a taste for liquor and it shows You say in Latin anything goes Ode to a ghost
2.
Phantom Feeling 04:26
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Lock fingers at the bus stop Lock eyes as you walk away I looked back first but You don't have it in yourself to look away It's getting darker The clouds are grey It'll only get harder If you stay I take my time On the way home Watch the streetlamps Flicker and go Black in the night and Sing them a soul I'm grasping at your hand Please let me fall And take a look at my sleeve I wear my heart there just for you I'd sell my soul in a millisecond Darling please it's true I'd carve your name into my skin Just so I'd never forget The naivety of youth And smoke on your hoodie Lock the door to the inside Lock the door to your head Say you don't want to think right now Don't want to fix this mess It's getting darker The clouds heavy Rain down your face You'll never be ready I took my time On the way home Blinked as the streetlamps Flicker and go Black in the night and Sing them a soul I'm grasping at your hand Don't let me fall And take a look at my sleeve I wear my heart there just for you I'd sell my soul in a millisecond Darling please it's true I'd carve your name into my skin Just so I'd never forget The naivety of youth And smoke on your hoodie And take a look at my cheek I wear my heart there just for you Closer to my skin, my eyes, my lips Darling please it's true I threw away my pride Just so I'd never forget The smile in your eyes And smoke on your hoodie
3.
Red Ribbon 03:03
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Lick my lips They're cherry flavour Check your watch Do me a favour Dance with me The dance macabre To this song I'm singing Don't miss a beat I'm holding you tight Don't let me go Dont breathe tonight Let's not confuse These summer blues With something deeper Than your rockstar cool Tie my hair With a red red ribbon Walking down the stairs as you Take off your coat I feel the air Around you waltzing Watch you blinking slowly Run your hands through my hair You braid my hair Just how I like it Don't mind the time You talk in poems Let's go somewhere Somewhere loud and lively Might even let me Play my acoustic Don't miss a beat I'm holding you tight Don't let me go Dont breathe tonight Let's not confuse These summer blues With something deeper Than your rockstar cool Tie my hair With a red red ribbon Walking down the stairs as you Take off your coat I feel the air Around you waltzing Watch you blinking slowly Run your hands through my hair And we don't talk about it Anymore No we don't laugh about it We don't sing about it We don't dance about it Anymore Tie my hair With a red red ribbon Walking down the stairs as you Take off your coat I feel the air Around you waltzing Watch you blinking slowly Run your hands through my hair
4.
Glacé Cherry 04:17
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I used to like sweet things Now I've got you on my lips Like tar in my lungs Just can't shake your kiss Something violent about your eyes Hands on my hips Keep your mouth zipped Don't let it slip I think I'm prey to you I'm sure you hate me too Ash on your hoodie Sweet like candy Red like my dress We're out too late The moon sings merrily They drink like pirates Walk me home As the sun rises Honey on the ferris wheel Sharing all your secrets I'm far too kind to care and you're Far too sly to keep 'em Walk along the coast with me Horizon's blue and ivory Baby can you humour me Let's hangout as the sunsets maybe Stuck on your brain Like syrup in your teeth Round and round Like a record on repeat Running through a field At half past three Nail polish the colour of A glacé cherry I think I'm prey to you I'm sure you want me too Ash in your pockets Your face in a locket Red like my lips We're out too late The moon sings merrily They drink like pirates Walk me home As the sun rises Honey on the ferris wheel Sharing all your secrets I'm far too kind to care and you're Far too sly to keep 'em Walk along the coast with me Horizon's blue and ivory Baby can you humour me Let's hangout as the sunsets maybe I think I'm loosing you You cling on fast To what you can grip But it won't last It'll all collapse We're out too late And I'm caught up In the silence Walk me home Our breath collides
5.
Chokehold 03:46
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You've got rock in your blood Don't ya? I can tell at one glance Bet your folks do too I've grown bitter I admit it Your stale persona fits it The ideal I depicted In my head Fix my skewed perception A nicotine affection Met by no correction You're a lovely affliction To have But so am I Salty breeze In our hair Your arms round me Seasons in the air I'm glowing darling Put your cigerette out And breathe me in Until your lungs give out You're pretty when you choke On my perfume Say it smells like Brandy And cherries in the Summer gloom We'll die young Like all the greats Singing like angels To Lana Lana Del Rey I've got music in my blood Don't I? You can tell at one glance It's no suprise You look sour, do you admit You think I'm charming? We're doing no harm On the wall outside The party Fix my clouded perception A nicotine affection Met by no reflection I'm a lovely affliction To have But so are you You're pretty when you choke On my perfume Say it smells like Brandy And cherries in the Summer gloom We'll die young Like all the greats Singing like angels To Lana Lana Del Rey And we'll pray to anything We can think of Cuz we're so fucked up we're sane And years from now You'll still know my name Tattooed on your soul When you say grace
6.
When He Takes His Headphones Off 03:43
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Sins in your soul Like a rhythm Tounge sharpened Cutting like a river Blue in your veins And your fingers Heart in my mouth Blistered fingers You've got your eyes on the world I've got my eye on you A storm on the cusp of your Favourite tune Tempest, temptress All watching you When you stop What it is you do He says "you know what you mean to me" When he takes his headphones off for me I give my eyes to you You give your ears to me Tracing stars on our cheeks Dancing in the living room Summertime and Kerosene fumes Humming amongst the Dandelion blooms You sound like a memory I once knew You've got a crack in your head I've got one matching yours I stole something from you I thought you didn't want Blood isn't thick If you wash your hands And it only stains If its out the hot tap He says "you know what you are to me" When he takes his headphones off for me When he weaves his lies so honestly When he talks from the heart So quietly He says "you know when I look at you I see what I've wasted embraced in you In your pretty voice The way your fingers move In your torrid taste for Cloudy days and Rain on the roof" When he takes his headphones off
7.
Summer (again) 02:45
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It's been a while Since I heard my name from your lips But oh you look Too clean I still crave Your warmth You're my sun My icarus My soul And it's starting to look like summer Again We're only getting Older but We're younger in our heads You're starting to look like summer Again You used to wipe Off the stain When my lipstick left a mark Like you could rub away the rain And when you'd smoke It'd make me laugh You had that timeless look about you Baby Standing in your heavy jacket And it's starting to feel like summer Again We're only getting Older but We're younger in our heads You're starting to feel like summer Again And I thought I met your ghost Standing under that streetlight Like a moth at my window Standing tortured in the rain outside I could see it in your eyes That you'd shed a thicker skin And that summer Was closing In And you're starting to look like summer Again We're only getting older but I'm younger in my head You're starting to feel like summer Again
8.
Beautiful Black 03:04
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Black like the cherry colour I love so much On my nails, in my hair and in my blood Black like the depths of the deep dark sea The belly of the ocean is carnivorus Black like the vinyl records I smashed With a hammer then hung on my wall Black like the perfume bottle of my favourite Perfume that I've ever bought And I don't think the temperature Has changed much since last autumn But the air seems to be thicker and I can't see through the fog For fucks sake it's just september But I really don't remember Finding it so hard to breathe Last year It's just the way the cliff crumbles Its just the way we weather Losing track of time Heads pressed together You'd stay forever But would you brave the grit? It's easy to fly when your Wings aren't clipped Black like the pit of your stomach When your heart drops Black like the dark of your eyes When it's night time Black like the sky as it thunders when the leaves change Black like the 3 inch heel boots I wore In a mosh pit with the heel hanging off I got them from my sister but I think I pulled them off And I don't think that the weather Has changed much since last autumn But the air seems to be thicker and I can't see through the fog For fucks sake it's just September But I really don't remember Finding it so hard to breathe Last year It's just the way the pillars crumble Its just the way we're tethered Losing track of our minds Heads pressed together You'd stay right here But would you face the music? It's easy to fly when your Wings aren't clipped It's easy to die for someone Not so much to live Black like the broken piano in my living room Black like the hole in my soul where you used to live Black like the cat on my street who's not a stray but can't go home She sleeps under cars when it's Raining
9.
March Hare 03:49
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Tie up your hair And put your blues on Like I'm not even there And I watch Humming on your sofa Like a lost soul We took the train home And you said nothing Yet there were no words left Unsaid Would it be so terrible To let it be To fold the page Not have to wait and see Oh we could not find out What happens next We've already hurt so much So while we still draw breath I beg a god I don't believe in To stop the clocks A little pocket of space Where we can breathe And every now and then I feel time slow And for a moment You can see A forgettable dream Don't leave me in this place With the lights off There are a thousand hidden faces Watching my every move It cuts me under my skin When you shut that door And there's something sharp In the way that you trace my palm With your calloused Fingertips It wouldn't be so terrible To let it be To leave your bookmark between the paper You hated when the pages creased Oh we could not find out What happens next We've already hurt so much So while the stars are near I beg a god I don't believe in To stop the clocks A little pocket of space Where we can breathe And every now and then I feel time slow For a moment You can see A forgettable dream And our hands will always hold Our bones will never break Our souls forever bonded Let's not do another take Take your time to take in All our little mistakes Let our lungs forever breathe And our hearts never ache I beg a god I don't believe in To stop the stars A little pocket of space Where we can see them shinning And if they never fall Then I bet time'll slow For a moment You can see An unforgettable dream (Let our hands never waver Let our bones never ache Our fingers entwined No need for remake Watch the time pass by But never slip away And our lungs will forever burn And our wings mend in our wake
10.
Lighter Burns 03:48
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Fuck What's a song Meant to be? I could write you poetry I could sing you poems Paint you places you've never seen Kids What's a kid? Am I too old to be a kid? Oh I could be a kid for you If you wanted me to And I know that you'd sing with me Whether it's incoherent or poetry I know that we'd jump together In the pit below the sunset I know that you'd dance for me Let me play you again and again Like a music box ballerina Just to watch you spin Hold up your lighters Let the sky burn Our bodies and our bibles The scrapes left on our knees We all carry The very same sin Souls that inhabit A human skin Rose What's a rose Without it's thorns I'm reduced to nothing Vulnerable so Cut me open Slice me through my stem right to my Core Deep inside Where I hide From the outside screaming Let's go home And watch a movie Put out your cigerette On my wall And I know that you'd scream with me Whether it's shitty lyrics Or a melody I know that we'd jump together In the pit just as the sun sets I know that you'd dance for me Let me play you again and again Like my very own court jester Just to watch you spin Hold up your lighters Let the sky burn Our bodies and our bibles The scrapes left on our knees We all carry The very same sin Souls that inhabit A human skin Brandy breath On cigarettes You smell just like the movies Put your hand in my hand Honey On your shoulders so I can see The lights and the adrenaline Pulsing through my veins There's something in the air My dear I bet that we look crazy Hold up your lighters Let the sky burn Our bodies and our bibles The scrapes left on our knees We all carry The very same sin Souls that inhabit A human skin
11.
Ink Deep 04:56
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I feel your tears sting Through my veins they sing Like a snail carves it's trail Your words in my ears ring Your music a haunting thing So sweet and sorrowful And it hurts to think That you've crawled in my head and Poisened my songs Write In the steam Ink deep In your skin I trace the words on your arms With my finger, love As though I could Be without a heart Then it gets dark I'd cremate my soul So you could hold it close And whisper to me with your fingertips Your delicate promises Promise the end as it is Soft and mellow And I wanted to speak But I caught my tounge And watched The shadows dance on your wall Write In the steam Ink deep In your skin I trace the pattern on your arms With my finger, love As though I could Be without a heart Then it gets dark And the hourglass Drains away The last grains of sand Fall like a fable From your silver tounge Your touch is my religion In the fading sun It hurts To meet your gaze Therefore we write In the stream Deep as ink In your tattoos They spin a tale Unforgotten on the Tip of your tongue And I rehearse That verse Like a hymn I've played my part

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released November 9, 2023

All songs written, performed, arranged and produced by Spider (Meadow Veasey).

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